There is a big difference between being a Singer, a Performer and an Entertainer. When I finally got the guts to get up on stage to sing, there is no way I could “feel” the song. The Artists that make it big, they know how to entertain. Jennifer Lopez, Mariah Carey, Janet Jackson, Michael Buble, all of the above know how to entertain.
I gave it my best shot a few years back. I have said before, I don’t let my anxiety stop me from trying to do things if I really want to do them. People told me I would get over my “stage fright,” but I never did. I spent seven or eight years trying to become an Entertainer. I never got over my anxiety. It never got any easier. I didn’t get sick, but I felt like I was floating on air. At times I couldn’t remember if I had already sang the chorus, or if I had already sung the second verse. I got through the performance but I never entertained. I could never “feel” the song.
I was so worried about what people thought of me. I always thought they didn’t like me, they didn’t like my voice, they didn’t like the way I dressed. Of course, I have no proof they actually thought that. No one ever said anything, but I knew that I was not cut out for the entertainment business. If you can’t start getting comfortable on stage after that many years, you might as well cut your losses. It was not fun when you were getting paid to put on a performance and never really pulled it off.
I still like to sing once in a while but not for payment. Somehow there is less pressure but I still can’t do it without anxiety. At least I tried, and I am thankful for the experience.
Let the music move you.
I’m Frazzled Again.
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