I’ve never attempted suicide. I’ve always been too afraid of dying. Some people think those that do attempt, whether or not they succeed are cowards. This is not fair. The pain they are living with daily, just gets to be unbearable.
In some ways they are probably wondering to themselves, “Do I have the courage to go through with this?” Other times there is no question and then the attempt is made.
This is not a cowards way out. They are tired of living in their own version of hell, much like someone who is going through an illness of Alzheimer’s, Parkinson’s, incurable cancers, they do not want to continue living if they don’t think they will ever get better.
This morning I was very sad to read a post by “My Loud BiPolar Whispers.” If there was a reblog button, I would have reblogged it. I’m not sure I should post about this, but I think I have to. She wanted us to read it and continue fighting, otherwise she would not have posted it.
This morning she wrote that this would be her very last post. I continued reading, thinking that she was re-blogging from years ago and this had happened in the past. This letter was to her children and she posted it here as well. As I continued reading, I realized that this was happening now. I checked the time my email arrived and it was around 5:30 am this morning (Canadian Time.)
Wow, this is really happening. It was already 10 am when I started reading, so I wondered, “Oh my gosh, is she gone already?” I read the comments of other bloggers, some one had managed to get the police involved and they found her. She was still alive. I can’t confirm all this as I am reading only from comments.
At this moment, I do not know how she is doing, but if you are following her, maybe you can send some “thinking of you” comments on her post, in the anticipation of her being able to return to her blog to read it. I know there are many of you out there in the blogging community have been in her position. This will be very emotional for you.
I don’t know what else to say about this. It is heart wrenching for all involved. I’ve never experienced a suicide in progress before. I am emotional, not near as emotional as her loved ones will be.
Here is a link to her post. Maybe we can help her find the courage to carry on and most of all spread the message to never give up.
Thank you in advance for reading her post and mine. Comment if you wish.
I’m Frazzled Again.
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