Hello everyone. Is there anyone else out there that gets bored with everything, including their job? Do you just feel like you want to branch out, do more things? My mind never shuts off.
I currently have so many things on the go. I have a store that I closed for the winter. I have signed a lease in a new location and now I will have two stores for about eight months and cannot afford to hire someone to help. Now I have to run two stores myself! I know, I bring it all on myself.
The current store is much bigger and I have a building filled with stuff to the ceiling, well almost. I rent a storage unit, for stuff. I have a Sea container full of stuff I’m storing. I have a basement, upper floor and main floor in the current store that I have to empty by this November. I have a house that has three rooms full of stuff I have to organize and get rid of. Yet, in all the time I’ve been closed I have done barely anything to get any of that “stuff” organized.
Through all this I have going on, my mind is still working over-time, wondering what else I can do to make money!!!! How foolish is that? I just keep wanting to branch out into other areas to see if I can find something that I can do to make money. I love doing stuff, I don’t regret doing all the stuff I have done, but… at some point I have to get my act together, before I have to retire. I’m not physically well at the best of times, so to add more onto my plate is just ridiculous.
I have all this stuff to do, yet I am bored. I guess it is a part of my mental illness. There are all kinds of blocks I put up that stops me from doing anything, yet I work my arse off. Who gets that? Does anyone else do that? Well if I manage to get through this next year without a mental breakdown, I’ll be doing good!
I was all ready to cut off some of these branches I have extended, now I’ve gone and signed a new lease. Who does that? Lord, help me get through this next year. I promise, after this, I won’t start another business. Wait, “Don’t make promises you can’t keep.” I have to keep this promise. I made a promise to my husband to stop going to the casino. The last time was New Year’s Eve. No I didn’t win. I’m not working and I can’t afford to do these things. Problem is, there is nothing else I am motivated to do. Writing. I am motivated most days to write. That doesn’t pay the bills though. I have an online store all set up and haven’t added any products to it. Just procrastinating again. How am I ever going to get everything done that I have to get done? Get of my arse, that’s how!
I’m Frazzled Again.
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